Hi all,
I've been struggling with unexplainable fatigue for my entire life. I've been unable to figure out what's going on, even after speaking with doctors. I just stumbled upon your forum today and I'm hoping there's someone here who's had a similar experience. I used to think CFS was identifiable by its severe intensity and flu-like symptoms (which I don't have), but after reading a few threads, it seems that there may be more variability in that diagnosis?
Early life
- Prone to tiredness a a child. Would even put myself to bed for naps as a toddler.
- Frequent after school naps in middle school and high school. Likely worsened by my depression, which started at 12 years old and lasted for 8 years.
- Difficulty focusing in school (middle school through college) due to fatigue and concentration issues.
- Sleep study performed in high school. Results were completely normal.
- I did make the connection that pushing harder during sports = more napping after school.
Medical
- Celiac (mild), diagnosed in high school
- IBS-C
- History of depression (no major, long-lasting issues the last 8 years though)
- Possible mild general anxiety
- Seasonal allergies
This is where my problem really comes in.
My depressive episode was resolved at 20 and I started strength training wth barbells shortly after turning 21. I wasn't competitive with it at first. I definitely felt fatigued after workouts, but I hadn't noticed any sort of concerning pattern yet. A couple of years later, I became a certifed strength coach and began coaching full-time. That's when I decided to push myself hard. I worked with another coach during the period, who was much more experienced and had a reputation for making strong lifters.
During this 2 year period, I bulked, gaining 15lbs. I tracked my calories strictly. I was an online coach and has plenty of time to rest and life outside the gym wasn't too stressful. I don't have any children. All of this is to say recovery wasn't an issue.
This turned out to be one of the most miserable periods of my life. I would workout 4 times per week, about 2 hours each session, doing the traditional high intensity work. Nothing special. But it would completely wipe me out. I calculated that when I got home, I would have about an hour to shower and eat something before I would have to sleep. Naps were seldom less than 1 hour. Commonly 2 hours, sometimes longer. Sometimes I would nap two or three times in one day. I would always nap on my off days too. (I know many lifters take naps but, damn, that seemed like a lot. No way all the working parents I was coaching would put up with that.) If I ever tried to push through without napping, I would be a zombie. My productivty would tank. I could barely focus or stay awake. It was more efficient to take a nap and then work than to try to go without. I felt like my entire life was work, workout, sleep. I was sleeping my life away.
I should also mention that it seemed my fatigue would build up faster than it should. Depending on the advancement of a lifter, they'll need a deload (light week) after X number of weeks in order to disspate their fatigue and prevent burnout/overtraining. I would hit that threshhold really early, but my coach would rarely program deloads for me.
Lastly, I was more emotional during this period, although it's difficult for me to flush out how much was a result of the mental stress of the workouts themselves versus feeling chronically worn out.
Fast forward to today. I've been experimenting with different types of barbell training the past two years. First I reduced workouts to twice per week, avoided higher intensities (RPE-based work), focused more on higher reps per set (sets of 8-10, as opposed to 1-5). Now I'm dipping my toes in three weekly workouts, one exercise per workout but seeing if I can handle modestly higher intensites. I still experience the same exhaustion response if I push myself "too hard" during workouts, but it's not as bad as before since I'm not going all out every workout and I have more control over my schedule (so the fatigue isn't building up).
I just want to know if I have some form of mild CFS. I've dealt with a tremendous amount of guilt the past 6 years because of my fatigue. As a strength coach, it's difficult for me to talk about or admit that it's really holding me back from lifting the weights I feel like I "should" be lifting. It would be a relief to know that I'm not crazy. This isn't all in my head. I'm not just being a wimp.
Thank you.
I've been struggling with unexplainable fatigue for my entire life. I've been unable to figure out what's going on, even after speaking with doctors. I just stumbled upon your forum today and I'm hoping there's someone here who's had a similar experience. I used to think CFS was identifiable by its severe intensity and flu-like symptoms (which I don't have), but after reading a few threads, it seems that there may be more variability in that diagnosis?
Early life
- Prone to tiredness a a child. Would even put myself to bed for naps as a toddler.
- Frequent after school naps in middle school and high school. Likely worsened by my depression, which started at 12 years old and lasted for 8 years.
- Difficulty focusing in school (middle school through college) due to fatigue and concentration issues.
- Sleep study performed in high school. Results were completely normal.
- I did make the connection that pushing harder during sports = more napping after school.
Medical
- Celiac (mild), diagnosed in high school
- IBS-C
- History of depression (no major, long-lasting issues the last 8 years though)
- Possible mild general anxiety
- Seasonal allergies
This is where my problem really comes in.
My depressive episode was resolved at 20 and I started strength training wth barbells shortly after turning 21. I wasn't competitive with it at first. I definitely felt fatigued after workouts, but I hadn't noticed any sort of concerning pattern yet. A couple of years later, I became a certifed strength coach and began coaching full-time. That's when I decided to push myself hard. I worked with another coach during the period, who was much more experienced and had a reputation for making strong lifters.
During this 2 year period, I bulked, gaining 15lbs. I tracked my calories strictly. I was an online coach and has plenty of time to rest and life outside the gym wasn't too stressful. I don't have any children. All of this is to say recovery wasn't an issue.
This turned out to be one of the most miserable periods of my life. I would workout 4 times per week, about 2 hours each session, doing the traditional high intensity work. Nothing special. But it would completely wipe me out. I calculated that when I got home, I would have about an hour to shower and eat something before I would have to sleep. Naps were seldom less than 1 hour. Commonly 2 hours, sometimes longer. Sometimes I would nap two or three times in one day. I would always nap on my off days too. (I know many lifters take naps but, damn, that seemed like a lot. No way all the working parents I was coaching would put up with that.) If I ever tried to push through without napping, I would be a zombie. My productivty would tank. I could barely focus or stay awake. It was more efficient to take a nap and then work than to try to go without. I felt like my entire life was work, workout, sleep. I was sleeping my life away.
I should also mention that it seemed my fatigue would build up faster than it should. Depending on the advancement of a lifter, they'll need a deload (light week) after X number of weeks in order to disspate their fatigue and prevent burnout/overtraining. I would hit that threshhold really early, but my coach would rarely program deloads for me.
Lastly, I was more emotional during this period, although it's difficult for me to flush out how much was a result of the mental stress of the workouts themselves versus feeling chronically worn out.
Fast forward to today. I've been experimenting with different types of barbell training the past two years. First I reduced workouts to twice per week, avoided higher intensities (RPE-based work), focused more on higher reps per set (sets of 8-10, as opposed to 1-5). Now I'm dipping my toes in three weekly workouts, one exercise per workout but seeing if I can handle modestly higher intensites. I still experience the same exhaustion response if I push myself "too hard" during workouts, but it's not as bad as before since I'm not going all out every workout and I have more control over my schedule (so the fatigue isn't building up).
I just want to know if I have some form of mild CFS. I've dealt with a tremendous amount of guilt the past 6 years because of my fatigue. As a strength coach, it's difficult for me to talk about or admit that it's really holding me back from lifting the weights I feel like I "should" be lifting. It would be a relief to know that I'm not crazy. This isn't all in my head. I'm not just being a wimp.
Thank you.