the suggestion, for some severe m.e. at least, of pacing as
management-ey [metaphorically keep track with a clipboard,
known energy ceiling that acts as cutoff value], does not
feel right to me.
i can't articulate this well, however. i might be alone.
am i also the only person for whom:
> Using pacing, you can live your life according to a plan,
rather than in response to symptoms, giving you a sense of
managing your illness, rather than illness controlling you.
is cringey? it sounds like promotion for uk professions
that i do not want to talk about or videotapes plugged on pr
many years ago with the assertion that you don't want to get
better if you don't shell out 200 usd for them.
probably i am being picky but i could not read more so
idk if it had disclaimers. i can't plan reaching arm out to
grab food (severe executive dysfunction or something
similar).
following gurus' "if you don't master x, x will master you" stuff according to a plan is right for me? is it time to be guided by an energy management specialist who will tell me when to go to the bathroom even though i cannot do so?
am i push-crashing? am i pacing? i have to rest before and
after doing things and not overdo things. but i don't have
lots of choices. i am overdoing even when i am doing eat,
rest, medicine, bathroom.
complex schemes of choices and management strategies that i
can't even read or make sense of, much less implement, is
alien overhead to me. i guess i am the only one who is like
this? idk. maybe i am doing my life wrong?
i am never ok below a threshold. does this mean i don't
have pene? are other severe able to do this stuff?
> The contrast of push and crash vs. pacing suggests that
our symptoms are not random, but rather due in large part to
variations in our activity level.
my symptoms are not "due in large part to variations in [my]
activity level". they exist even without any variation. they get worse if i do things but also if i get overstimulation stuff etc. and that is not what is being said here.
are most pwme ok if they are below a threshold? i fit
meicc++ quite well. but i feel really excluded here.
it is true that if you have the disease, you can be
extremely sensitive to environment and lifestyle changes,
but the disease is not due to failure to adopt lifestyle
changes, even pacing. imo that should be stated.
otherwise it is a bit like a reversal of the arrow of
causation.
also, leading with push/crash nomenclature might be
problematic, as it is used frequently by perpetrators to
blame the disease on lifestyle, as if it were fundamentally
[1] a hangover or mild altitude sickness type thing [2] that
most people would experience [3] if they didn't ever think
about [and need help with] changing basic aspects of their
lifestyles like stopping going to dance clubs or something
else dumb and obvious.
that keeps the m.e. = trivial myth alive. it also keeps
severe m.e. unimaginable. literally.
you do not get severe m.e. symptoms from such things as
going to dance clubs.
it wasn't meant like that, but when it is combined with the
pep talk, i am surprised to see it from this org?
i am unable to articulate the alienated feeling i have and i
suspect largely inability to use the info. from the first
few paragraphs. doesn't feel entirely relevant. maybe just
me. it is the org for severe after all. they know their stuff?
i clicked on the pamphlet precisely because it is that org. even though... i can't do facebook and they have no
forum or mailing list.
i feel alienated for some reason.