Thank you a lot for your very interesting post, and contribution to the discussion.
I continued taking a high dose throughout, being very mindful of taking it at the best possible times to maximize the effect. I come from a somewhat privileged family, and know a lot of doctors and people who work in pharma, and everyone I have talked to think the idea of resistance being the reason for my regression very unlikely. They could all be wrong of course.
Having been active in the MECFS community for over a decade now, I have read a lot of stories about people who had a remission and then claimed to ´´overdo it`` and have their symptoms worsen. So I was obsessed with never overexerting when I was getting better. Yet I still regressed.
I think there is a lot of victim blaming amongst MECFS patients, and people will sometimes wrongly attribute worsening of symptoms to overdoing it, when in fact the worsening was always going to happen. I think this is also the case in a lot of failed recovery stories. Don`t get me wrong of course a lot of MECFS patients can directly attribute their ´´permanent`` worsening of symptoms to overexertion or graded exercise. However I think patients like all human beings become too obsessed with cause and effect. Not every case of worsening symptoms is due to overexertion. Some patients just crash and get worse, and there was absolute nothing that could have been done to prevent this from happening.
The latent virus thing is of course true, and the possibility of resistance is genuine. However some of the other patients I have been in contact with have tried other and more ´´serious`` anti-virals afterwards, and none had any effect whatsoever, when the virus should not have built resistance to these? At least as I understand it with my sadly pathetic knowledge of medicine.
Some long covid researchers seem obsessed with the latent virus stuff so we will see if anything comes from it in the following years. I personally doubt anything will come from this route taken, but would be delighted if proven wrong.
One last thing. Very interesting how quickly you responded!!
Rick, thank you for your interesting reply.
I think that the most important thing I wanted to say was how important your experience was for me. Because you are only the second person I have the chance to chat with who did try a continual acyclovir treatment.
It was of course an idea that I thought about too. The main reason that it didn't happen was that neither my TNE doctor, nor my GP, or my ME specialist wanted to take the responsibility to try a herpes drug off-label. They all mentioned the risk of the forming of resistancies. That was before I knew about the HHV-6B hypothesis in ME.
Since I really wanted it for an emergency situation I found a way to get a hand on it myself. I informed my GP and my specialist which they appreciated as a sign of my trust in them, and probably understood well. Maybe thinking that they would do just the same if they had ME.
I realise my post to you went a lot in to the direction of educating you about the charateristics of herpes viruses and the high risk of resistancies. When my main internal response was more of the sort of relief that I didn't had the chance to go on acyclovir continually because of the caution of my doctors around off-label prescriptions generally, and their great awareness of the forming of resistancies in bacteria and viruses towards antibiose/antivirals.
You wrote a lot about remission and deterioration that can happen to patients even when they rest and pace really well. I know about that. In the German speaking countries the idea that with pacing 80% of patients / in 80% of the time patients can reach stabilisation with a disciplined energy management is widespread. So I am very aware of the 20% where patients do not have control of the course of the illness.
When I wrote that that doctor who I chatted with possibly didn't do enough to learn to rest and pace it was inferred from my own experience on acyvlovir. I am completely at a loss very fast when I am on the drug for a couple of days to understand what's a sensible amount of activity that I should do.
I have therefore decided for myself that I want to treat that case as sick days. I try to plan as little activity and a lot of rest. Just as if I was ill with every other infectional illness. And I remind myself that I am not recovered or healthy even though it feels like that. It's only under the influence of a very potent drug that I feel that way. In reality my theory goes that my T-cells are too exhausted, too few, too degenerated to effectively fight off HHV-6B reactivation. Hence I tell myself that even when I don't feel like it especially during the first couple of days on the drug where I feel that I'm in complete remission of ME/CFS which is euphorising, in reality, I am very sick.
I think that that's just an other mindset than that of that doctor I chatted with who decided to continue working as a doctor in a stressful job with long hours and a lot of responsibilty. The driven doctor's mindset, if you will.
Since we have "socialism" in Switzerland when it comes to financial social security and nobody has to live in the streets who doesn't want to, there is a real choice for us whether we want to take care of ourselves when we're ill. And I think that that might have helped me to resist the desire to start my work rehabiliation on a potent drug that's not a cure but just suppresses symptoms.