JemPD
Senior Member (Voting Rights)
He explicit says himself that he, was catastrophizing to a great extent. The perfectionist in him couldn’t deal with this.
Occasionally I was walking with ear plugs out of people, something that is not uncommon for those who struggle with this. You think you have to protect your ears. I stopped listening to music, one of my greatest pleasures. All the time I thought "Is the sound there now?", "Is that the sound from the dishwasher or from my ear?". I got disaster thoughts. The perfectionist in me said that "you can not live a life with an imperfect body." It sounds ridiculous, but it was claustrophobic. Fortunately, I did not get to an ear nose throat specialist who would at worst have linked me to understanding myself as a patient with an ear injury.
It's basics to make the brain change focus and turn a vicious circle of fear and increasing symptom focus.
Ahhhh, well, that explains it then. He reacted in a cognitively unhealthy way to a 'minor' health event - not saying tinnitus is nothing - i have it quite badly & it can be miserable at times, but it's not exactly rocket science to avoid focusing on it.
But he did focus on it, he obsessed over it & went into fear/avoidance mode.
Therefore that must be what everyone with ME/CFS is doing. It looks very much like he's read the BPS crap at some point, allied it to his experience & thought '"f course!!, that makes sense - thats what happened to me!!" .... so therefore that narrative must be accurate. His experience is what everyone is experiencing, if he catastrophizes then we all must be.
This is so infuriating. I do not catastrophize about my symptoms, at all, i never have. Even at the beginning when I was seriously ill in hospital & a brain tumour was suspected, i was sure whatever it was wouldn't be life threatening & they'd treat it quite easily, i was the one reassuring everyone around me.
I catastrophise about other, specific things at times, we all have our weaknesses, but never about my symptoms & it really gets up my nose that they all have just decided that thats what i'm thinking... & if i say i'm not i must be in denial, because i must be in their view.